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All I can see,
are your disappointed faces staring back at me.
I’m sorry I’m not how you wanted me to be,
I’m sorry I’m not the person you wanted to see.

I’m not the person I wanted to be,
When I look at myself I don’t like what I see.
It’s cold and it’s dark
and everything’s wrong,
I miss feeling like I used to belong.

I’m sorry.

I know these aren’t the words you wanted to hear;
I wish I could tell you what you wanted to hear
but I don’t know.
Who am I meant to be?
I can’t move on,
I’m trapped,
I’m stuck here, I’m sorry.
I never meant for this
I don’t know how to leave.

Please leave me be

I close my eyes,
I don’t want to see
your disappointed faces staring back at me.
I’m sorry.
Maybe this is who I’m meant to be.
Fallen apart,
but I touch and I feel
Somehow I still breathe
Somehow I’m still real.

I have to keep trying
I can’t stop,
hold me up.

The ground’s gone from beneath me.

It’s time to let go.

I’m sorry I’m not the girl you wanted to know.
I’ve fallen down,
broken,
all of me is ripped open.
I keep holding on
Keep hoping.

Tell me

Who’s the person that you now see?
Is she free of secrets?
The ones she tried to keep?
I’m sorry.
Who do you want to see?
Do you want me to be someone I know I can’t be?
It’s not me.

I’m shattered and broken
Every part was ripped open
I need you,
Don’t stop.
Tell me what you want.
I can’t be the girl you want me to be
But I’ll try.
Tell me, who do you see?
Am I everything you thought I would be?

I’ve lost sight of me
I’ve lost the way.

I’m sorry.
I asked too much,
I just need somebody; that one friendly touch.
I need it,
I need you.

Please

Make me the person I want to be.
I want to look at myself
and be happy with what I see.
Maybe one day.
I’ll keep trying
I will.
I’ll push on and on
No more stopping
You’ll see.
One day I’ll remember
Who I used to be.

 

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April 26, 2017
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  • Reply Natasha

    I love this so much! I can pretty much relate to this in every way. I always feel like I’ve let people down and I’m not the person they thought I would or should be

    Tasha x

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